All my life I’ve been searching for something. I did not know for what during the past 12 years – until now. I would spend countless hours reading and studying and memorizing every and any thing that shone a light of truth through it. Hours perusing through website after website, digging deeper and deeper into what seemed to be a never ending pile of shit. But through that shit I could always sense there was something there on the other side. As if there was a tiny beam of light shining through the center of that shit tunnel like a laser beam. And now I’ve finally hit a wall. Or should I say a door. Who put it there and why I do not know for certain. What I do know is that this blog will be a record of my How and What. What led me to that door in the first place and the step-by-step progress of How I’ll be working towards opening that door.